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Your Life's Mission

Defeating your Ego when it tries to destroy what you have built

SUPER SOUL SUNDAY PRESENTS... Your life's mission (defeating your ego when it tries to destroy what you have built)

YAY! It is finally Super Soul Sunday......my very favorite day of the week)... the day when I have my "Church" (meditation and connecting with God for at least an hour) and bless my house and my family (clearing and cleansing everyone and everything in the house with Sage...

releasing the old energies of the past week and setting intentions for the upcoming days ahead.)

and best of all it is Sunday night family dinner in my home... a tradition I started when I became a mother 23 years ago... it is dear to my heart and my adult children have been brought up to pass my tradition on to their families... even my Mother and her other half come every week (and sometimes my siblings and their families come to gather.. it is amazing and refreshing!)....

The only issue being the fight that my fiance' and I have every week on who is gonna cook (a loving friendly fight of course); because we both love to cook and when he moved in with me, he kind of took over the cooking on Sundays and loves it.

I woke up early this morning and it was dark out, I noticed the ground is covered in snow and it is the first snowfall of the year... so another reason to celebrate today!

I hope you are finding yourselves finding little things to celebrate today and I pray you are happy, warm, and peaceful this Sunday.... I am sending love and blessings to you all!

SO....

As some of you may know, the past week and a half has been topsy turvy in my world and although it had a lot to do with things that were beyond my control, when I was forced yesterday to take a step back and look deeper into the swirlings of everything lately, I came to realize and understand that this is not without lessons and growth for me and my soul.

I have tried so hard to stay out of negativity... and lately I have had to try harder then usual, because stress levels have been high and with the issues we have had in our home with someone who is an alcoholic.....

has been having a tenancy to bring up some wounds deep within my being, which I thought I had released and healed long ago...

you see my whole life, I have had people in and out that were either alcoholics or drug addicts that have greatly affected my life. It has always been someone else's addictions that have tore me apart......

I know now.... without a doubt that every single one of those people were brought to my life so that I could help them....

but some just weren't ready to learn yet or to grow; so this last one, I had to send away with love and pray that he finds peace before it is too late.(love from afar so that it doesn't take me and my family down with him)...which as we all know is very hard to do!

This past week has made my ego take full advantage of my hearts weaknesses......

I have had moments of thinking that maybe I am NOT on the right path here (doubting myself and my abilities)....

and because of all the negative energy around me (not mine but everyone elses)...

I have felt very disconnected from spirit, from nature, from my soul, my angels, my guides, and my self!

My manifesting wasn't working, I wasn't seeing signs like I usually do, and I actually had several people this week randomly message me telling me that I was going to go to hell for my beliefs......

No matter how much I cleared my energy and no matter how much I tried.... things were just swirling.......

SO yesterday, I was at an event (a holiday Bazaar) where I had a booth set up and was all excited to sell my beautiful homemade (by hand) Organic Natural body care products (which I make with the oils and resins from my own plants).

I was excited, because it had been a sort of rough week and I figured this would bring me back to my happy place... I absolutely love it when people smell my things and go "Ahhhh that smells amazing"....

It absolutely fills me up when people buy my things... because I know that when they try them, they will feel my loving energy (feel my light)......I know my medicines and essential oils and body care products will be a huge blessing to them... it will heal them!

I figured this would be what was needed to completely bring me back into being me again after all the negativity and drama I had been through in the past week....

I set up my booth and put all my gift baskets out that I had made. I set up my display of essential oils (freshly distilled), and strategically placed the roll ons and the teas and the body butters and the bath salts, Sugar Scrubs, and the anti-aging facial care kits....etc etc etc...

The aroma around my table was overwhelming with the beautiful smells of nature.....

The energy I had brought with me was love and blessings and I had meditated before I had gotten there..... cleared my energy once more before starting and setting my intentions as I always do ...

you see I usually know without a doubt that those who are meant to come see me will... and I typically know that not every soul is at a level of understanding yet where they clearly understand that God intended us to use the plants to heal and maintain our bodies.

....but what I was about to experience was something I have never been through before yet while selling my products (I usually have a booth at healing events or holistic centers)..... this was just a standard rent a booth type of event with many "Pyramid" chains.

SO I was all set up and the doors opened..... people were coming in 2 by 2 and 4 by 4......and even 6 by 6 (well.. that might be an exaggeration, but you get the point lol)

The first hour I spent smiling and everyone as they walked by my booth.... I would make eye contact and say "How are you today?" to folks as some of them would say "Fine" and walk away and then others would look around and act like they didn't hear me and walk away....

At first, I was thinking "Well.. it's early, and maybe they are all just kinda walking around, and not really looking at people's booths yet"

But after 2 hours of being completely ignored (it was like I was invisible NOT KIDDING).......

I started to feel defeated...... as I looked around and all of the high priced, brand name booths were overwhelmed with people in line to buy their things... they couldn't keep up....

All of the people who were working for these big companies, trying to make a sale, because then they would get a paycheck... trying to get others to join in so that they could have people under them.....playing the pyramids and selling things to people that were either not good for them or full of chemicals (most likely not even knowing they were selling stuff that is killing us.....or not caring because it was all about the $$$)

and noone would even look in my direction.......

I could feel my ego laughing at me.... I could hear my ego telling me....

"You idiot.... did you really think you could compete with corporate America?"

and....

"You spent all that time making that stuff for nothing.. dummy!"

and even...

"nobody cares about your cause......people don't know your name or trust things that you make....society could care less about all natural!"

I turned around and there was a lady from Young Living (essential oil company).....

her booth was over crowded with people who couldn't wait to "Sign up" and buy her essential oils....

When I had a whole bin of them sitting here that are literally fresh from my Organic plants... I had worked really hard all summer long loving and taking very good care of my plants, thanking my plants for the beautiful oils they had blessed me with.....

but...

nobody seemed to be interested....they had no problem spending a lot of money on the Young Living oils (don't get me wrong I do use Young Living sometimes....

I am not putting them down, for those of you feeling over sensitive today.....they just do not personally take the time and energy like I do and they charge way too much for the same thing that I have available)

There was a booth across from me, where a lady was selling body care baskets and a lot of the same things as me too... but it was a big brand name pyramid type of company....

I had looked at her stuff earlier and just as I had suspected, they were full of dyes, preservatives, alcohols, and things that harm the body....

Her booth was overwhelmed with people too....

I thought "Crap.. they just do not realize how important it is to keep those chemicals out of their bodies....."

I had a moment right then of thinking....

"man... I have been preaching for over 6 years now, and trying to get people to understand the truth.... I tell people daily that the reason they are sick is because they are eating things that are not digestible and putting things on their skin that are poisonous.... but I am spinning my wheels... no one cares....it's not about being healthy to the general population, it is all about convenience and knowing the company names..... I am never going to be big enough to make a difference.......no one hears me, and holy shit... I must look like such a douche-bag preaching all the time to people who truly do not care!"

I held back tears, as I sat there stewing about how our society is so brainwashed by Corporate America and how I will never get anywhere... I have been trying for so long and I am never ever going to be anyone special... I am just NOT!

My mission that I was on felt like a complete waste of time...

I deeply thought about all the time and energy I had put into all of that stuff sitting on my table and how much love I had put into everything.

It was apparent to me that my dream to become a famous Herbalist/Aromatherapist, healer.... would never ever come true... I was on the wrong path here!

I had a second or two of....

"It's not even about the money to me... I just want to help people... while I was working my ass off tirelessly in the past couple weeks making everything for this event... these people were just ordering their stock and practicing their speeches, that weren't even their own words......."

and then....

When I decided that I was going to give up....

what was the point?...

I mean people clearly would rather spend high dollars on something that they knew the name brand of, rather then spend any time even asking me about my stuff......

I decided that I seriously needed to take a few steps back and figure out where I am going wrong here.....

wondering if I had been missing something the whole time here.... if I am on the wrong path then....

"What is my life's purpose.. my path?"

I could hear my Ego say... "You aren't abundant... you are stupid! Nobody gives a crap about your stupid stuff!"

it happened....

A girl walked up to my booth....

she looked around, picked up a few things and put them down and walked away.... she turned around and came back...looked again... and then walked away....

Then....

I watched her come back to my booth a 3rd time.....

She read my sign that said "Wholeistic Healing" and said...

"Are you Becky from Wholeistic Healing?"

"YES!" I said.... "Yes... that's me!"

She then explained...

"OMG! I am so happy I found you! You are the only reason I came here today.. I heard you were going to be here. I wanted to meet you in person so badly! You see I follow your Facebook pages (Wholeistic Healing and Becky Jo the Healer).. I look forward to your posts every single day! If it wasn't for you, I would not be here right now!"

I was blown away.... I must have looked like a fool, because my brain was a little slow in processing what was just said...

I sat there and tried to speak... but couldn't...

I eventually replied with...

"Really? aww honey you have no idea how much that means to me! Can I give you a hug?"

she said "I have been waiting a long time for a hug from you.. you are my Idol!"

We both cried as we embraced each other and it felt like time had stopped!

She further explained to me that she had been so drawn to me for such a long time, but didn't know why.... and that she didn't want to look like a stalker and that was why she came and left my booth a few times before she got the courage to talk to me...

she was overwhelmed by my presence... my energy (which I have heard several times through out my life) but in a good way!

I explained to her that certain people are meant to help certain people on their paths (journeys) in life and that I must be one of her soul family members and that her soul most definitely recognized my distinct energy (blueprint)... and THAT is why she was drawn to me!

She told me about her attempts at suicide in the past year, and that she accidentally (uh ha... lol) came across my page one day just before she was going to make another attempt... but my words that day changed her mind!

Then she told me that shortly after that, she found out she was pregnant and knew for sure that she was meant to sick around for a while here on Earth....

She explained that she had looked forward to being a momma and wanted to do everything "Natural"...... and wanted me to help her with all natural body care and medicines for her and the baby.

She bought a few things from me and left.....

I didn't even care that she bought anything... that wasn't what I cared about at all....

Now.. I am not even lying when I tell you that about 15 minutes later another girl walked in and walked up to my booth....

This time, this one said...

"Are you Becky from WHoleistic Healing?" (no kidding)....

and I smiled a huge smile and said "Yes maam!"

She smiled back and said...

"I heard you were going to be here today and I saw on your website that you make an aromatherapy inhaler for nausea?"

I said "Yep.. I sure do. Unfortunately I don't have any with me today, but I would be happy to make one for you!?"

She agreed that she would like that and gave me her information.

She then told me too that she follows my teachings and that she is a huge fan.

after she left.....

I was overwhelmed with joy and gratitude.

Maybe I WAS on the right path here...

Maybe I AM making a difference in the world!

no.........

I KNOW I AM!

At that point, it was like the flood gates were opened and people started coming to my booth....

I didn't sell out by any means, but I did well.

It was at that point that I told my EGO to BITE ME!

I was going to pull in the blessings had received and be so dam thankful and great-full for the lessons I had learned.. for the small gifts of complete alignment with spirit that I had received.

As the event started to wind down and things started to wrap up... found myself living back in my heart, where I belonged.

The anger and resentment that I had felt towards all of those selling high priced icky-ocky products went away and I found myself being so happy for them that they had an abundant day!

I walked up to the Young Living lady and I said..

"Hi, I am Becky from Wholeistic Healing! I distill my own essential oils, and make body care products from them and my plants. I am on a mission to teach the whole world that God intended us to use Nature to heal our bodies and although I do not use Young Living all the time, I do use the oils at times and they are a true blessing in this world.!

I just wanted to introduce myself and say... THANK YOU for being a natural girl like me!"

She grinned from ear to ear and said ...

"That is amazing..... I can't tell you enough how Young Living and essential oils have changed my life! I am 64 years old and am on no medications of any kind since using essential oils for my health!"

She told me then that...

before she started using essential oils, she was on over 14 medications.... her doctors are amazed!

I looked at her and realized that she hardly had any wrinkles on her face and she was radiating with beauty and positive energy!

We had a very nice conversation and ended up exchanging business cards with the intention of keeping in touch.

As I packed up my booth at the end of the day, I contemplated everything I had learned in the 5 short hours that i was there...

This event, although a short one would be life altering for me!

On my way home, since I had found my way out of the muck... I saw my Angel clouds and my birds following my car as usual (which I hadn't seen in several days!)

All was right with the world again and I had successfully knocked my Ego back out of the front seat of my being......

So what did I learn?

1) You must have Faith... even if things and people aren't going your way... it is for a reason meant for you to see why they aren't. You must figure out what your lesson is, so that you can proceed forward!

2) You must always follow your intuition and your life's path. Sometimes it may feel like you are on the wrong path.. but that is because you are getting too caught up in negativity (which then makes the Ego take advantage of your vulnerability).

3) Not everyone will understand your path.. not everyone is interested in what you are passionate about...some souls are not at the level of understanding that you are..... but those that are meant to hear you WILL!

4) When it feels like you are but a grain of sand on a beach.... it is when it's time to reevaluate yourself! Stay in your heart! Spirit (God) will always show you the way!

5) Negative energy will always try to slam you down into the ground. You must rise above it... you must not ever let it get the best of you...!

6) Your Ego is more then happy to have you give up on your dreams... you are stronger then your ego, you are more beautiful than you think you are... and you are SPECIAL! We ALL ARE!

7) I too am human........and have to work hard to stay in Love and Light sometimes......

and most of all...

8) Never ever let your EGO destroy what you have built! Because it wants you to give up, it wants you to feel terrible about yourself and your life's purpose (s).... God sent you here to accomplish miracles and when you stay in your heart... MIRACLES HAPPEN!

I walked away knowing that I am definitely on the right path! I understand and know for sure that I may not always reach everyone, and I may not always be seen and understood by the masses....

But even if one person is lead to heaven on Earth from my Love and Light.. IT IS WORTH IT!!

I AM WORTH IT!!!! and so are you....

I want you all to take this and all the lessons I learned yesterday and make this a true blessing for you!

I am sending you all so much love and Pure White Healing light of pure God Source Energy!

HAPPY SUPER SOUL SUNDAY!!

~ Becky JO~

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